Time never speaks, but it says everything.
Memories#
I am a nostalgic person, just like some people say "nostalgic people always seem like scavengers." But it seems like everyone ignores the next sentence, "So I always look at you, who is bright and beautiful, in coarse clothes and burlap."
I am such a person, treating past events and people as if they are still familiar.
Summer#
It's the beginning of summer, and the weather in Sichuan is still unbearably hot.
Maybe it's because I see my mediocrity, or maybe it's because I see my various shortcomings, the weather seems especially hot. There is also a sense of helplessness and frustration about what to do now and what plans to make for the future, which is difficult for me.
"There are 100 days left until the college entrance examination," a sudden voice broke the illusion. I looked at the countdown on the blackboard, looked around, and saw my classmates. Only a few of them were still looking up at the blackboard, while most of them had their heads buried, either sleeping or playing with their phones. As for me, I usually oscillate between studying and not studying, and my scores have always been around 400 points. As for the college entrance examination, my idea is to just get into a university. My daily life is just a routine job. I don't spend extra time studying when I get home at night. Like this, day after day passes. After the college entrance examination, I didn't have many thoughts, I just had the idea of retaking the exam. Maybe it was just a thought, but it seems that God gave me such an opportunity. The scores I usually get in tests are around 400 points, which is not enough to get into a good vocational college. But with a score of 483, I entered a second-tier university. In my high school, it is already very good for a class to have a few undergraduate students, and it is precisely because of this opportunity.
Before I started school, I bought a book on C programming by Tan Haoqiang (the father of C language 😂😂😂). This was also my first contact with programming. I still vaguely remember the first program I wrote, which was also the most impressive one. It was a program to solve quadratic equations. At that time, I was showing off to my good friends everywhere. I learned through self-study every day, to be honest, I didn't learn too much during that time. I was always unable to concentrate on things, mainly because of my bad study habits. But I continued to study like this until school started, 😍. When I first came to school, I was inevitably excited and enthusiastic about everything. I still vaguely remember being fooled by my senior brother to interview for a department during the promotion. When they were promoting it, they told us it was nothing, just give it a try (yes, I went). I went there full of confidence, 😭😭😭, but it was different from what I imagined. I can't even describe how awkward it was. At that time, I was completely embarrassed. But fortunately, later on, I learned that our school had a laboratory recruitment. To be honest, I was very excited (I have already left now). When I learned about the recruitment, I was particularly excited and prepared for the interview early. I still remember how passionate I was at that time. Until I successfully entered the laboratory, I also clocked in on time every day and studied in the laboratory. I successfully passed several assessments and stayed in the laboratory, but later I found that the laboratory was not what I imagined. I had to figure out everything by myself, and there were few opportunities to communicate with senior brothers. Most people just treated the laboratory as a self-study room.
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Idolizing Technology#
After a semester of studying, my thoughts have changed, and I now idolize technology. As for the final exams, I just wanted to pass. Of course, my grades were not good, but I didn't care.
When it comes to idolizing technology, whenever I see the projects of the masters, I always think about when I can be so skilled. But looking back, was I really studying hard during that time? It doesn't seem like it now. Instead, I wasted a lot of time, didn't plan my study schedule well, and didn't have good study habits. Looking back, I still regret it, I wasted a lot of time.
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Morning#
As for tomorrow, my thoughts...
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